Monday, January 3, 2011

My crazy life

It has been quite some time since I have been on here to write, and life has been happening left and right.... Lately life just seems to be coming at me so fast and I dont know where to turn anymore. Everything I know to do I have done, well thats not true... i havent been going to as many meetings as I should and I know I haven't been praying as I should be either....

I guess I am just in a limbo right now... Not knowing what the next right thing is and how to do it right... My car got repoed and Im sleeping on a couch, I am happy where I am living but I know that it isnt permanent. It seems that everything I do I mess it up and everywhere I turn something bad is going on. Knowing me it is most likely my perception of life and I can slip into self pity in a heart beat. Which is what I'm trying not to do. I know that there are plenty of people out there that love me and are glad that I am in their lives but somedays I want to give up. I dont want to fight the fight....

I don't know where to turn in all of this and what exactly I am trying to say. What I do know is that I gotta keep on keeping on and eventually everything will work out....

I just wish it was sooner than later.

1 comment:

  1. Much has changed since you posted this. Just goes to show you how... if we pause long enough.. it changes. Amazing how God works

    Love you baby girl!